The Lament of Me.

Dear Don (my son)

                 I'm sorry that dad was never around,

                I loved your mother but I didn't know she was behind my back running all over town.

                I tried hard to be a good man to you,

                but in turn i ended up being like my old man who I never knew.

Dear Sam ( my daughter)

              I know your lovely and beautiful, I know your mom is so proud of you,

              and in your heart you'll probably hate and me cause I was never there for you

              but I loved you and in time you will understand

              this was not my idea of being a father

              this was not apart of the plan.

Lord knows I was trying to be good man,

I was stuck was a rough hand,

but I played what I played anyway,

hopefully the chips feel in the right place.

I heard that you both have new dad now,

I hope he treats you right

though i might not like him i hope he loves you with all his might.

THIS IS MY LAMENT......

Grew up Single Mother dad walked away when I was only 4,

 i was glad cause,you don't hit a woman and leave there coverd in blood and on the floor

but at the same time I wish you would got it together and came back.

I hid all my pain never did drugs but I turned to rap.

Mom did the best she could so she raised me in church,

I love Jesus so much because He gave me a sence of self worth.

However I understood through Pacs lyrics about the game.

I was just a young weak kid with no dad trying to find my lane,

A young teenager with hand-me down clothes trying to chase girls,

and at one point in my life felt it was me against the world.

The Church and World were calling me,

tought decisions as a young black male with no destiny,

would I end up on the corner with the rest of my friends..

would I even make to 25 or at 30 finally meet my end.

Sometimes I didn't care all though i was traveling in the Navy,

my life was going nowhere.

If I had the heart to pull the trigger I would have pulled it along time ago.

where was dad when I need him,

although I hate him i was becoming more like him.

but as a man i have learned the power of forgivness,

so I can sleep and get this off my chest..

My Lament

To all those I might have hurt, I'm sorry.I really am